Actor / EntertainerI'm Katee Sackhoff, but you might know me better as Captain Kara 'Starbuck' Thrace from BSG. AMA!
Sep 22nd 2017 by Katee_Sackhoff • 30 Questions • 855 Points
As the title states. English is my first language and I consider myself to be generally not-stupid. TGA is a medical condition where you forget where and who you are for 24 hours or less. It was scarier than I could ever describe. At this point, the severity has greatly decreased and I am mostly back to normal. I am trying to use this time to document everything I can about this mindset. Please AMA, as I would love to have this record to look back on when I am lucid.
to add some more info: A few days ago I started having some weird feelings. I texted a friend at like 2am saying "do you ever feel like you've had all the cards taken from you? like somehow you've been given a chance to "redo" something in your life but you don't know what it is? I'm starting in this moment fresh somehow. I don't really feel like I've lived this life up to this point. I'm starting fresh from this moment and I have no idea what it all means." Turns out that was one of the first symptoms of TGA which is the craziest shit I have ever heard in my entire life and i thought it was only a movie plot.
Last night I went to a party with my boyfriend of about a year. It was a normal day. We usually eat vegetarian but it was a special occasion so we split a very yummy hamburger. I took a few hits of a pre-rolled club joint that was from a friend-of-a-friend. Nothing abnormal, smoking pot helps with my anxiety, I tried it about 9 months ago and I have liked it a lot. Anyways, I randomly threw up on myself in the car on the way to run an errand. I only partially made it out the window. After that, I asked my boyfriend "Why are my pants wet?" and he said "you threw up on them." and I said "throw up? what's that?" and he said "vomit." and I said "I don't know what that is." and then we had that conversation hundreds of more times. over and over. He became very scared and we went to the ER.
EDIT: Did you know TGA only has a 6% chance of coming back? It can be triggered by really good sex, cold water, stress, and more. For me, It was emotional stress. I've had a stressful few months and I didn't know it was important to self care and monitor. I tried to do things right, but I did a lot of things wrong. I'm 23.
Transient Global Amnesia = World Temporarily Forgotten
tl;dr I have Transient Global Amnesia, much like Dory from Finding Nemo, or Ava from Grey's Anatomy. I think it's almost over but I'm still having confusion.
Are you and Tricia Helfer secretly competing to see who has a better AMA, cylons or humans? Also thank you for inspiring the most badass tank top combination in fashion.
I was mugged once upon a time and my brain reacted with TGA. I don't remember anything about the next 4-5 hours. I just remember the doctor telling me it was the most profound case he had ever seen. I was resetting every 10-15 seconds. I freaked out my roommate when I showed up at the apartment and didn't know how I got there or what month it was, and asked him the same questions over and over.
I haven't had any reoccurences, and I hope you don't, either! Do you remember the previous weeks leading up to the TGA? What's the first thing you DO remember after it started?
No, Tricia and I are actually incredibly supportive of one another. But I hear her AMA went fantastic this morning! Thank you so much for the comments on the tank top, I actually was just told the other day it was incredibly attractive which I didn't know that the time. That's good to know in hindsight!
Woah. That's definitely a stress... a 10-15 second reset sounds like hell. I'm so sorry :( I do remember the previous weeks. I guess the first thing I remember was staring at the x10000rpm on the dashboard. I was thinking "what car am I in... who is that note to..." and I remember being cognizant that it was abnormal for my boyfriend to be clutching my arm and elbow while I walked, and I noticed that he seemed to be really scared but I didn't know why. After that, I remember walking into the ER and everything being super bright and there were two security guards looking at my boyfriend smiling. After that, there was an Indian doctor who looked at my boyfriend and said "freaky, right???"
Hi Katee, On Tricia's AMA she mentioned wanting to do a reboot of Cagney and Lacey with you. Is that something you'd be on board for? I'd watch!
Is it scary to suddenly not remember what happened? How disorienting would you say that is?
Absolutely! I would adore working with Tricia again. It would be a dream to work with one of your best friends on a daily basis. I would absolutely be on board with this, as long as it wasn't a procedural type of show and more serialized.
Extremely horrifying. It was like hell. It was like being abducted by aliens and total sensory overwhelm. Everything was too bright and i could see everyone looking at me. I felt like they all knew somehting important that I didn't, and i knew whatever was happening really wasn't good. Thank you for your question
Excited to see you on The Flash soon. Was it fun beating up Danielle? Did you get to work with any other actors?
No problem, thanks for the respond.
How could you possibly know I was beating up Danielle? Cuz that would be a spoiler!
any time!! AMA for science! I'm aware that this all sounds like BS, but i'm cognitive that this will be beneficial in the future and really beneficial to look back on. this is all on the hope that this disorder is temporary :(
Hey Katee, huge fan here! Thanks for bringing strong female presence to the screen and really nailing Starbuck as a character. I suppose I'd like to know where you think Kara went at the end of her story arc in BSG. It became pretty obvious that there was something crazy going on, but how did you mentally end her story?
What is the first thing you remember after the episode ended? My aunt had something like this happen and though she still remembered people, facts, words and such, she couldn't form any new memories until it was over almost a day later. In her case it was due to a blood pressure spike induced by swimming in cold water.
I wanted to give Starbuck a bit of peace at the end of her journey on the show and because I had know idea what she was or where she went, I created that myself. In my opinion, she went with Anders at the end.
oh jeez. Yeah, i heard that can happen. My boyfriend's ex girlfriend has been threatening to take our dogs since we wouldn't give her money for an air bnb to visit. i was alone in a very visible room every day for weeks and weeks. the house was under construction. I left a culty-religion and my parents found out i had my names removed from the records, even though that's illegal and i used a lawyer so it shouldn't have happened. we stopped drinking 147 days ago. i quit a really good paying job to move hours away with my boyfriend while we build a house together. our living situation is stressful and no matter what we do, it doesn't feel like it's enough. It's a lot of changes all at once. I got in a car crash around christmas time and my boyfriend fixed my car, and my dad told me I'm a maniuplative lying bitch. it was really hard on me, and i was really despressed for a long time.
Hey! If you could do a mashup episode of BSG and any other show ever, what would you pick?
That may be most of them.
I think that a BSG/Cheers mashup would be fun. There was actually a bar on BSG so that would play really well or maybe even Night Court. It could have solved some of BSG legal issues!
Hi! Thank you for doing this AMA. Battlestar Galactica is the best TV show I've ever seen. The performances still move me every time I re-watch it. So thank you for that, too.
Star Wars or Star Trek?
Hey, I wish you the very best of luck.
That is a crazy situation and I hope you are taking care of all of the potential long term medical issues.
So, when this happened when did you get scared? At the hospital or when you saw your boyfriend was concerned?
First of all thanks for that compliment! I really appreciate it. And secondly, I'm a little biased on this one. I might get kicked out of bed if I don't say Star Trek. But I want to believe that we have enough love for both of them because I truly can't pick.
There should be no potential long term medical issues. TGA is really only supposed to last a day or two and my MRI was totally clean. My boyfriend was a champ at keeping me calm. He knows that I really like physical touch, so he held me against his chest and kissed my forehead over and over saying that he was going to take care of him. We were in the hospital for our anniversary 😕
What was working on 24 like?
Also congrats on getting a shoutout on jeopardy today
Wow very interesting. Do you think all your memories will return? And if you're American, do you remember your social, please don't post it lol.
I'm very curious about your time perception. How long does it feel like it's been? Do you feel the same age?
And was it harmful to your body? Like did the amnesia cause damage?
I loved working with Kiefer and Clayne Crawford he plays such a phenomenal nemesis. Plus, he's great on Lethal Weapon which is a guilty pleasure of mine.
I am american! I remember my social, my library card from when i was a kid, my mom's cellphone from like 10 years ago... my memories BETTER return. I think they're almost all back, but i would be very disappointed to live the rest of my life in this mindset. I KNOW I'm smarter than this. It feels like Flowers for Algernon or something. I'm so afraid that I'm saying the wrong things or offending people or I'm going to lose my friends that I've told. My boyfriend has been amazing. Lots of cuddles, and only nice words. He's been sending those screen-iphone things. like fireworks and balloons and confetti and i've been playing them over and over. Those things are great. he also took a picture of us cuddling this morning and has been sending it to me every half hour or so.
my time perception- I think I lost 7 hours or so. i remember getting ready for the party and being at the party, and then everything was fuzzy and cloudy and like what i imagine a bad acid trip would feel like. I kept staring at the dash board, because there was a note from my mom that said "thanks for the visit, here's a snack!" i felt like i stared at it for days, trying to analyze the words and keep my body totally still. I didn't know where we were or where we were going at all.
I think I feel the same age. I'm 23. the beginnings of the symptoms were cool, actually. I felt like it was the first time we were having sex and i wanted to just take everything in. i think i even said "wow, you fucked me so good I forgot my name!" which we laughed at the time. Retrospectively, it's sad that that was one of the first symptoms of this scary stuff. I felt like I had been given a chance to "redo" something in my life. Like buddhism must be real, because I had lived this life before, to the very end, but I couldn't remember living it up to this point. I told my friend that i was feeling like this was all a test I had taken before, but I couldn't remember any of the answers. I remember looking in my closet and thinking "WOW! All these beautiful clothes! I haven't seen them for YEARS!!"
TGA should not be harmful to the body. Temporary is in the name. It should end with no permanent effects on my brain. Things are probably 800000x better than they were before, and i have been sitting in the same spot, in a cold sweat, music blasting, since about 1pm, and it only feels like a few minutes have passed. I recognize that my body is starving, but I just can't handle going to the kitchen and risking having to talk to anyone. I had some coffee this morning. so far, the most comforting music has been myself singing. I'm cognizant that that sounds vain, but it's like a lullabye.
On wich spaceship would Starbuck want to serve if it was not on the Galactica?
And who is your favorite science fiction character outside the BSG universe?
PS. You are amazing!!!
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Oh my god, I'm going to need to rewatch this entire series again with you guys. I have no idea what any of the names of the other ships are! It's been too many years so a rewatch is definitely going to need to happen.
Thank you very much!
Do you think was Starbuck somewhat responsible for Kat's Suicide?
What was it like coming out of it? Was it gradual or sudden? Did the doctors know right away what was happening?
No, absolutely not. I believe at times when people are on this trajectory and if they are very committed to it, while as survivors we may carry a lot of guilt, I don't know if there is anything you can do. However, we must always try and mental health is a serious issue in this country. So we must never stop trying to help our friends and family. However, I think to say that someone is responsible for another human being's suicide is terribly irresponsible. That being said, we have seen children fall susceptible and be pushed to suicide by their peer groups and this is an instance when as a society we need to better.
It was really terrible. I was extremely anxious and thought I was dying. It's indescribably scary to feel like everyone is afraid of you right now because you're acting so crazy. They didn't know right away. My boyfriend said they thought I was trying to hide sexual activity by pretending to not know what pregnancy was. Which.... ??????
Hi Katee! BSG was one of my favorite shows. I also loved you in Riddick and in Longmire. Do you prefer doing movies or TV?
Doctors are so ready to blame anything and everything on a secret pregnancy. Like, y'all need to lay off watching House and I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant.
I love them both! It's just a matter of where the strongest character development tends to be and that's where I gravitate toward.
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Hi Katee, What initially drew you to playing Starbuck? How did it come about that you were offered the role?
I was waiting for someone to post about being post ictal. When I have a seizure I wake up and have no idea who anyone is or anything and I don't know who I am... I always assume I'm dying and I freak the fuck out until things come back to me
Offered the role? Absolutely, not! I auditioned at least 5 to 7 times to play Starbuck. Initially, what drew me to it was the script was fantastic. But I really wanted to shoot a gun! Up until then my career was mostly "typical blonde rules" and I really wanted to expand out of that and Starbuck fit the bill.
Are you epileptic? This sounds more like a post-tictal state than TGA.
What were you wearing in the bathtub scenes on The Big Bang Theory? Come on, you were all thinking it.
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I was actually wearing sweatpants and a tube top, so I was completely clothed. I know that's not a sexy answer, sorry to ruin that for you! There was no real water in that bathtub, just bubbles which are really slippery. We had to push our feet against each other so we wouldn't slip. I kept kicking him, where you shouldn't kick a man!
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Hi! Big fan of yours and was wondering if you were given a superhero role - what would it be and why? :)
So in your story you knew who your bf was, but didn't know what vomit was? So is it only some stuff you forget?
I have absolutely no idea! I tend to actually like playing villains more than heroes.
Yep that's my story. Hope you enjoyed! 🙄
Good Evening, Katee! If you could be part of any story adapted from a book, which would it be?
I think you'd make a great Devi from the Kingkiller Chronicle. I mean perfectly.
So with this TGA; have you ever actually picked up a skill you didn't have while lucid during this time; such as a foreign language or physical ability like whistling?
My favorite book growing up was The 12 Dancing Princesses and I would love somehow, to figure out how to be apart of that. If it ever got made of course!
I don't think so. But that would have been rad
Hey Katee, I can't wait to see you as Starbuck!
I had a Longmire question, if that's alright.
Can you hint at when Netflix will release the final season and do you know if there's any talks about a Longmire movie? Thank you very much for doing this AMA!
You just said that it can be triggered by cold water or sex. So you're never fuckin or getting near water again either? I'm about to call bullshit on this one
I have absolutely no idea when Longmire is going to air and I know that there are discussions about potential movies, but there is nothing definite.
Extremely cold water or extremely hot water, if I remember correctly. No, I don't plan to go ice-dipping or lava-diving any time soon. Physical stress is another trigger. So sex, working out, house building.... can't avoid any of those. We've had sex a few times and everything was fine. I don't think pot caused this, but I'm not to a point where I want to find out firsthand. Honestly I'm pretty sure it had a lot more to do with the emotional state I was in with a lot of understandable stressors. But what do I or my doctors know? You're right. This is all bullshit. thank you for your question though! I posted this expecting this type of feedback, and honestly I feel the most like myself when I'm thinking "this person is a total idiot."
Best behind the scenes memory of doing Longmire? (Love that show and I'll be honest I never would have watched it if I hadn't watched you in BSG. So happy to see your acting ability chops have so much range)
Thank you so very much! The Longmire cast are all very very close and I enjoy working with all of them. But I must say, night shoots with Adam Bartley are one of the funnest things to do.