Feb 2nd 2018 by drinksap • 18 Questions • 23 Points
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For years, my family have been torn apart by the repercussions of domestic violence. For the past few months, I've been struggling to accept the reality of our situation. It's 11 years on, and I often feel like a failure because I still feel no closure after everything that has happened.When I was at school, teachers that were aware of what was going on would tell me that one day I would end up writing a book or doing something positive with my own experience. As the years have progressed, this has become harder and harder to motivate myself towards. I have had numerous conversations with social work regarding my concerns, written a lot of letters and even started a petition at one point. Each time, I have been pushed back or made to feel like a crazy and traumatised child. I am an adult now, but after being silenced and ignored so many times, it has become harder and harder to fight back and I have questioned my own sanity over the years.
1,031,120 - is the number of domestic violence incidents reported in England and Wales during 2016. Just ONE year. I’m always uncomfortable sharing personal things, but when there’s a chance to make a difference and bring about change by telling a story I think that’s more important than my own fears. Some of you might remember a petition I created years ago, I must have only been about 14/15 at the time. My brother, sister and I were placed into the care of my grandmother after living in a home of domestic violence for several years. I started a petition because social work wanted to send my brother and sister back to live with my mother and her partner as they said they had no evidence the violence was still ongoing. The reason they had no evidence it was still ongoing is because my mum was under his control and would cover up what was really happening and I had hoped they would listen to my concerns and acknowledge the risk in sending my extremely young brother and sister back to live in this home. I was thrilled when my petition gained 1495 signatures and a lot of support from the public and messages from people opening up to me with similar experiences.
Sadly, social work ignored my petition and I was told that I could be in trouble with the police for my petition if I didn’t take it down and shortly afterwards social work went through with their decision to send them back to live with my mother and my violent step-dad. As a young teenager it took a lot of courage to speak out and I think having my concerns ignored by professionals for years and years has made me more fearful of speaking out as an adult and eventually I lost faith in social work’s ability to protect children.
Sadly, earlier on this year it was revealed that the violence has in fact continued on for years. However, my mum finally made the choice to leave my step-dad and charge him for everything he has done. The police have had the polar opposite approach of social work. Now there is a chance he may go to prison for the things he has done.I think it speaks volumes about the system that the police can hear about the horrible things this man has done and think there is a chance he could be locked up because he is a dangerous man whereas the social work department seen a suitable home for children.
Their decision to send them back allowed this violence to continue on in the presence of my younger brother and sister for years. It’s time the social work department stop playing happy families and putting their targets/budget before the well-being of the children they are supposed to protect.The whole system is a disgrace and it has taken a lot of courage to share this story but I hope if enough people speak out then it will bring about change and encourage people who have been in similar circumstances to speak out and get angry until it can’t be ignored. If you see/hear something that makes you worry about somebody’s wellbeing then don’t ignore it - report it to somebody.
Things can’t go on like this.I am hoping by starting this blog and sharing my own concerns and experiences over the years, I may not only raise awareness and help someone else but may find some closure through writing about it.
EDIT: Grabbing a cup of tea and then I'll work through all the questions and make sure I answer everything. I'm not feeling well so will be spending the night in bed with my laptop so keep the questions coming, I'll be here all night to get through them. :)
EDIT 2: I am so overwhelmed by this response, I was not expecting this kind of feedback and all of you have made my evening and made me feel even more confident that I'm doing the right thing by starting this website. Like I mentioned in a lot of my comments, I am very new to all this and still getting used to things but I hope you'll all keep up to date with my posts and remember, if there is anything you would like to share then you can get in touch. Also, if anybody has any tips for building up a regular readership, that would be great.
What kind of increase in sales have you seen in just the past few days? Also what about impressions on your website/social media?
Are you happy? Looking back would you do anything different?
What do you do in order to stop the fainting? Just sit down and take a minute?
Do you celebrate Canadian or American Thanksgiving?
Hi, pal!! Do you have any pets? And if so, what are their names?
I'd love to learn how to program, especially graphical programming like OpenGL and DirectX or equivalents, and after talking to some family friends who do it for a living, apparently I have the right coding philosophy for getting the job done well, but I just have no idea where to start. I have extremely basic Java and C++ skills, and can do small script prototypes in Python. Where would you recommend I start developing my skills and what are some good projects to start with that teach you a lot?
This is really weird to see because my family is from that same Pueblo! I haven’t been back there in awhile but i do love dropping by. Have fun!
How many people still live in the Pueblo? And if you known anybody from the Cata family, tell them Sonny’s grandkid says, hi!
Thank you for your response, it definitely gave me a better understanding of her perspective
There has been a massive spike in online sales. Like way more than we expected. We were not focused on eCommerce at all before, but now we are rethinking our strategy. I think we are up to 50K hits on our sites, up a few hundred followers on each channel and increasing everyday
I am definitely happy. I know it sounds contrived or easy, but I wouldnt change a thing
I am told by different signals from Adele to stand still, sit down or lay down depending on the severity of the alert. I am only allowed to move when she tells me I am safe to do so. Adele is my Boss.
haha Canadians have a tendency to steal American holidays and make them before the American holidays. It's very a very cunning form of fest that only Canadians can pull off.
I HAVE A GARY ITS NAME IS GARY
WAIT HONESTLY I PROBABLY SHOULD NOT SAY THAT CAN YOU DELETE
DOES THAT DELETE
IS IT DELETED
I HAD A FISH BUT HE DIED
YEAH I THINK THATS WAY BETTER
I think it depends on what you're really going for. I think I'd probably recommend strengthening your Java/C++ skills a little bit for OpenGL/DirectX usage since that can get really complex and upsetting really quickly in my experience. The one that everyone recommends is Tic-Tac-Toe in text in a terminal, but if you're looking for a more graphical task then try making Pong in OpenGL or something like that. From there you can modify it slightly, make powerups, random events, choose a different scoring mechanism(score based on how much you move your paddle?), etc. The program is yours!
Hope I could help!
That's the hardest thing about it. Don't blame yourself for seeing the signs. I lived with it for 3 years, would visit my grandmother every single weekend and she has always been the closest person to me, even before she took me in but she even had no idea. The control aspect makes it so hard to spot, it's literally like brainwashing. I even wrote a letter to social workers telling them my step dad was like a dad to me and proclaimed how much I loved him. I had been forced to do it obviously, but that's what makes it so hard to spot. I wrote an article on the warning signs etc. You might find it a helpful read, but don't beat yourself up. I'm so sorry to hear the story but you should be so thankful that your sister is out, there are a lot of people that never escape. Have a read here. https://writeforadifference.com/2018/01/02/why-you-may-be-in-an-abusive-relationship-without-knowing/
Adele is my Boss.
We're still talking about the dog, right? :)
Which comedian makes you laugh the most?
I don’t really have a question, just wanted to say that it is awesome you are so focused and driven at that age! Hope you are successful.
Mmh, I guess I will ask- when do you find the time to dedicate to this with school and any suggestions on getting kids into coding?
Edit: spelling ugh
Yes, Adele is my Boss. She is wise when it comes to saving my life and I always do as she instructs.
Of all time, Richard Pryor. At this moment, Brian Regan.
GOD WOLVES MAKE ME SO MAD
THEY ARE SO POWERFUL AND STRONG AND THEY MAKE ME QUESTION THE HIERARCHY OF OUR NATURAL CYCLE
UGH I GET SO FRUSTRATED THINKING ABOUT HOW THEIR POPULATIONS ARE DWINDLING
OR HOW DESPITE NEAR EXTINCTION IN CERTAIN AREAS THEY CONTINUE TO REGAIN THEIR STRENGTH
Thank you!! :)
Basically any time I have when I'm not in school I put towards either playing a game or working on a game. I should really be putting more effort towards my schoolwork which has fallen by the way-side especially in the months leading up to the release of Mass O' Kyzt, but now that it's done I think I can spend a little more time and energy on schoolwork.
As for getting kids into coding, I think that the kids have to have a significant appreciation for computer first. I think that once they realize just how powerful, fast and versatile a computer is and once they realize that coding is literally the means by which they can manipulate humanity's greatest accomplishment, they'll want to learn about coding. I think the best learning experience is when a kid would take a template of a program, maybe they'd copy it out or something, and then they can add bits to it to make the program slightly different but ever so slightly personalized.
I don't really have much experience with that stuff so maybe I'm just talking nonsense but I hope that gave you something to think about?
What are your favorite fruits and vegetables?
Just wanted to say keep focusing on being a computer whiz and building things that actually interest people. You’ll be far more successful, and happier, than following a standard academic focus.
The clothes that you will be wearing for the dance, how did you obtain them? Were they made for you or passed down?
Hey, not to attack you but I am honestly curious. Why do you support the reintroduction of gun rights for abusers after only a "cooling off" period, rather than the loss of those rights? There are a lot of stats saying that having a gun in the household leads to more deaths, and we know from the texas shooting last year that some of those perpetrators come back later and do shoot their victims/family.
To me, it seems very obvious that unless the cooling off period is long and comes with counseling to change the mindset of the abuser, you are removing the danger to law enforcement only for the time immediately surrounding the conviction. But many victims go back, and even if they don't, many perpetrators reoffend. It won't protect the victim or the next victim, or the police who show up at the next incident.
I guess Richard Simmons and Terri Schiavo, I'm now using Bob Hope's old writers.
Thank you!! :) That's the idea. For a while I was kind of disenfranchised with getting into gamedev and thought that I'd just spend my life working a 9-5 as a software developer in some random company, but at some point I just... decided not to? Now I've got my heart set on getting a career in gamedev, or becoming homeless trying.
I have a few people that I contact prior to dancing and they make me what I request, mocccasins, shirts, and any other things. Some of the stuff i have is passed down but I like to try new colors out every year
Thank you for sharing :)
How does she alert you that you need to stand still, sit, or lay down? Does she stop moving? Lean against you? Start barking? Your story is incredible by the way, it is wonderful you two could find each other and she could have such a big impact on your life.
Edit. A word.
All your fans love your podcast. David Letterman, your hero, loves your podcast. Everyone seems to love your podcast. Why do you seem so embarrassed by it, or like you hate doing it?
How do you feel about the Samuel Johnson quote "(H)e who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man"?
As an ex game developer at EA, Criterion and a few others, I just want to say that what you've done getting a game together to releasable quality is amazing but beware that working in games for someone else is a completely different experience.
It's just implementing other people's ideas for the most part. I was given the choice to either design or code (not many get the choice), I chose code and its like in that moment my ideas were worth less than some first year intern just because they had a job title. If you're really passionate about making good games, having to implement other people's bad ideas can be quite soul wrenching. I earned less working every day of the week and weekends, than I did when I worked 2 nights a week doing websites. I had Christmas booked 6 month in advance to go see my parents, the game hadn't shipped yet. I offered to work remotely. I made sure my handover was up to scratch, etc. but I was kicked out of the team when I came back. I had one boss take credit for all my work and leave me with no reward after working my ass off.
If you've got a chance to make your own games company, do it. Don't go working for someone else if you can help it at all. Hire an experienced game developer as soon as you can. So you can learn from them. Always hire people that know more than you about something important.
I own an AI company now after many years to course correct and I couldn't be happier but really be careful what you choose. I did learn so much from working with great people, so make sure you get some of them around you either way. Good luck!
Adele will stand in front of me to stop me from taking another step. She would rub her muzzle against my legs, front to stand still, side to sit down and back of leg to lay down. Thank you. I am honored to be able to share her incredible abilities.
I did my podcast in order to see if I could host a talk show. And I think I succeeded and have now been offered a talk show by Netflix. All the podcasts were rehearsals.
EDIT: To be clear, I'm only in negotiations. There's no show yet.
HE WHO MAKES A MAN OF HIMSELF GETS TO STAY INSIDE AND EAT MELTED CHEESE
Don't go working for someone else if you can help it at all.
That's pretty much been the plan. I really value my independence and creative freedom as it is, and I really can't see myself ever working at a AAA company. Maybe at a small-scale indie company, but that's a big maybe and I think I would have to be afforded a large amount of input to not get restless.
Thank you for the advice, I've been trying to get into contact with some very talented developers in my area. There's this organization called Games Wales which organizes meetups and other events once a month for Welsh game developers to attend, but most of the places they go are 18+ and well, that's a problem for a few more months.^^
I'll definitely keep everything you said in mind. :)
If you could ask Adele only one question that she would answer in English, in detail, and truthfully (based on her own knowledge), what would you ask her?
What has been the biggest obstacle you’ve had to overcome in your career?
Bathing suit season is just around the corner, do you have any tips for keeping a trim figure?
The more I read this thread, the more I can identify to you.
I'm 15 years old, started high-school this year. Game development is my dream. Games carried me through all the crap I went through as a weak, weird introverted kid. Without them, I don't think I would have carried on very long. Art is the way we learn the things we can't learn in a school or that we can't all figure out just by experiencing them. That's what I want to try doing for the world.
But in the last couple years, I almost lost my hope of ever reaching that goal, because I couldn't get myself to do much to work towards it. Seeing that you think the same way as I do and that you've made it at such an age gives me some hope again. Plus, thanks to this post, I just found out about Godot ! Since GameMaker stopped being free, that's gonna be of use.
Thank you and good luck.
I haven't seen anything in the AMA about the dance itself yet. What can you tell us about the native dance styles and how they vary between the tribes?
There are very few modern hoop dance performers who do that sort of off-body work with more than about 5 hoops, though, and I've been told that 28 is traditional in native dance.
Obviously LED hoops are not a part of the native traditions, but it'd be fun to see what a skilled practitioner of the traditional dances could do with modern hoops and lighting design chosen to reflect their artistic heritage.
Yeah, I’ll definitely consider it. I’m at work atm but can I PM you later on? (I know, I know... get off reddit while I work. :p)
Due to multiple herniated discs, my pain level on a normal day is through the roof.
Wow, thank you so much! It feels really good to know that I somehow inspired someone by making a weird lil game and then doing a reddit post about it.
Best of luck to you on your gamedev endeavors! :)
The dance starts at sunrise, we come down from a mountain/hill thats nearby ( about a 1/4-1/2 mile away) and proceed to dance our way into the Pueblo. We dance til around 8 am or so, then we take an intermission from 8-9:15. Then we dance until 4 with 1 more intermission in between noon and 4 pm or so.
At 4 pm we do the runaway song, where we dance our final song and a clown/apache shoots a blank gun into the air after the final verse and we run before a woman can catch us. The whole point is to get caught by a girl, where she takes you back to her house after and feeds you after a long day of the dance.
Here's a video of the the dance we perform in from 9-2:30/3:00ish https://youtu.be/9LMGONSg2_0
I could not find the ending however
What do you wish more people knew about or did (or didn't do) around service dogs?
Norm, what is your opinion of Gene who works at The Washington Post?
What is your favorite cut of steak and how do you like it done?
Yep, CTO here. Can confirm. It’s huge that you don’t just KNOW things, but you’ve actually DONE stuff. Impressive stuff too. 10/10 would hire :)
People talk about cultural appropriation these days. What ar your thoughts on non tribal people liking and wanting to wear clothing inspired by your culture?
How do you feel about reformed abusers sharing their journey?
I wish people would respect the please do not pet rule for service dogs. It is never to be mean to the human or the dog. It is simple because when people distract the service dog they are putting the humans life in danger.
He's the greatest.
Haha, thank you!!! :) That means a lot.
It's understandable to a certain extent but I see a lot of people just wearing the native clothing because its cool or trendy but generally (from my experience) the same people are never really interested in diving into the actual culture (the good and the bad) but just do it because its the type of fashion we wear in the SW
I’m totally open to it, I want people to learn and grow from reading my website and the way to do that is by sharing information from all perspectives, and I think it’s rare to find a reformed abuser willing to share their journey so I think it would be really valuable and a good insight from the other side
What do you do when you get a warning and you're in the middle of doing something or in an inconvenient location?
Which four comedians would be on your "Mount Rushmore" of stand up comedy?
Why are horses so shifty? They always look like they’re planning to destroy something
Yup that's a fine suggestion, one I can relate to. Years ago, I made a Java music player similar to Winamp. I tried cramming in as many features of the original as I could, and it turned into a very satisfying learning experience. One silly customization I did was adding a message box that said 'Fuck you, I don't do that!' when dragging and dropping a non-music file into the program... Not the most mature thing to do, in retrospect. :D
Are there any books or movies that you think have accurate/informative portrayed of native culture?
Thank you for sharing. I lost a dear friend to domestic violence 2 years ago. She tried to leave. Changed the locks, got a restraining order. He came to the house when he knew she would be alone. He shot and killed her then shot and killed himself. Thankfully, he did no harm to her children. So my question is, how do you safely leave an abuser? We thought she did everything right. And she still lost her life.
I stop whatever I am doing until it is safe to continue.
Richard Pryor, me, Steve Martin, Brian Regan.
I AM SO GLAD SOMEONE FINALLY ADDRESSED THE HORSE MENACE
WE ALL NEED TO DO OUR PART TO DEFEND HUMANITY
HORSES ARE TOO BIG AND ANYTHING THAT CAN KICK YOU TO DEATH SHOULD NOT EXIST
LOOKING AT YOU, CASSOWARY
Haha, that's great! :)
To be honest i haven't watched a ton of native american movies (i know its ironic cause i mentioned i do film, and am native) but I just never ended up watching a lot of those movies. However, i do reccomend anything with Wes Studi, he's a fantastic actor and portrays things in a very accurate way.
I'm so sorry to hear that. That is so awful. To be honest, I don't want to lie here. I'm not a professional in this matter, I'm just here to share my own perspective on things and encourage other survivors to feel strong and share their stories, but every situation is individual. Leaving an abuser is such a complex subject and I don't want to pretend that I'm equipped to answer it.
How long have you had the condition before you met Adele? And to keep it light up in here, where's the most embarrassing situation you've fainted in?
What are you reading right now? Do you have any thoughts on Thomas Pynchon?
What is your favorite banana bread recipe? This is an important source of conflict among many humans. I will need to make yours to be sure you are, indeed, not a wolf.
That makes sense I think with getting them to make something more personalized to start. My daughter is 2yrs so I have time, however, I have cousins that are 11yrs and I am very close with them.
Wes Studi is amazing. The last of the Mohicans was the first "serious" movie I remember watching as a kid and even then I was blown away by him.
I live in the US, but I've sent my story in via your blog's share a story feature.
I have fainted since I was a baby. HHHmmm...most embarrassing place I have fainted? Lucky for me after I would faint, I didn't always remember fainting, so, I was never really embarrassed.
I'm reading "Search for Lost Time" by Marcel Proust.
I find Pynchon to be the most knowing writer of our time.
HAHA YEAH I KNOW WHAT BANANAS ARE AND AM DEFINITELY NOT GOOGLING THEM RIGHT NOW
Good luck!! 2 years might be a tad young, but yeah- 11 years sounds like a good time to get at least some kind of programmatic foundation in their thought process. Good luck!!
Watch Hostiles! Great movie that just came out and he stars in it
Thank you so much! Can I ask if you would like to be named or if you would like to keep it anonymous?
Wow, interesting condition and I'm so glad you're able to find such great results (and I assume a great friend in the deal!)
She was able to sense when I was about to faint and alert me so I could give my heart chance to recover.
Can you elaborate? What does "about to faint" look like to Adele and what does she do to alert you?
How does her alert allow your heart a chance to recover and prevent the fainting?
Norm to what (if any) extent do you portray a persona whether that be on stage or in various interviews?
I've often seen interviews where the hosts seem shocked at some of your answers such as saying you don't participate in sex because you find it boring or your love for Russian literature etc.
I tend to take it at face value because you seem sincere when talking about these things - so, am I the idiot for believing you or are others the idiots for not?
Hi, you're my favorite twitter account to follow. Thanks for keeping the world informed on your v important non wolf activities. <3
• What is your opinion on three wolf moon shirts?
• Do you like watermelon?
• Did you catch the super blue blood moon last night?
How did you learn how to do graphic design for the game? How long have you spent making the game?
What’s up bro? Fellow Puebloan here from Isleta lol, never thought I’d see a Native on here doing an AMA!
Anonymous preferred as I don't like the idea of people getting so much personal information with a simple google search, but I included my name in the submission form itself. You could list me as just "Jeremy" though, to more humanize my story rather than "anonymous."
I believe Adele smells a chemical or electrical change that my heart is sending out. She has taught me that doing as she commands prevents me from pushing my body too hard.
No I'm absolutely sincere.
HEY IF YOU CAN GET YOUR ARMS THROUGH SHIRT SLEEVES I SAY YOU CAN PUT WHATEVER YOU WANT ON THE SHIRT ITSELF
I AM A HUGE FAN OF WATERMELON, ITS LIKE IF APPLES WERE BLOOD
I DID NOT SEE THAT MOON BECAUSE IT WAS CLOUDY BUT THAT MAKES SENSE BECAUSE I FELT WAY STRONGER THAN USUAL LAST NIGHT
I've spent about 9 months making this game, all in all.
As for the graphics, I've spent the past 2 years or so creating placeholder graphics that I never thought would stick. Eventually, these placeholder graphics became high enough quality to where I just... kept them. I really never meant to learn pixel art on purpose, but it happened and I guess I'm going to keep developing my pixel art skills!
How's it going man? I felt it was necessary as people have a lot of different outlooks on us to this day. Let me know if theres any discrepancies on my part
What’s your favorite line to say in Mike Tyson’s Mysteries?
what did you use to make the graphics?
Do you feel pressured to marry someone with equal or higher blood quantum if you want your children to participate in your traditions?
Firstly let me say i completely agree with you about male victims and the sick lack of empathy our society has towards them. That's why, although I hate to say this, but I feel I should warn you that you are venturing into dangerous territory when you openly advocate for male victims in your program like you are doing.
I'm sure you've noticed you are already getting pushback from feminists in this post like:
"This makes me very uncomfortable, it feeds into the male victim MRA bullshit, and nothing drives abuse like 'entitled victim' mentality. The fact is, serious violence in relationships is almost always male perpetrated and women abusers very rarely kill their partners. This isn't nit picking, it's about protecting the vulnerable against abuse"
These people despise any effort to raise awareness or help male victims of anything. Especially if it means treating male victims equally to female victims which they interpret as taking attention away from female victims...somehow. I'm warning you about this because all it will take is one of these toxic feminists to right an article on huffpo or xojane to start a huge campaign against you and your efforts. Smearing you day and night and making your life hell.
If you don't believe me just take a look at what they did to Cassie Jaye
Take steps to prepare yourself
Good Luck my friend
I like the cursing that makes no sense and interjects itself, like "cock motherfucking son of a cunt bitch."
ABSOLUTELY I THINK THAT WOLVES SHOULD BE INTRODUCED TO A LOT OF PLACES
-THAT GAP OUTLET THAT I AM NO LONGER ALLOWED INTO
-SERIOUSLY WHY CANT YOU BRING HAM TO THE GAP
I used Aseprite and a whole lot of trial-and-error.
I'd love to marry a native woman, and of course I want my kids to participate but if I do fall in love with someone that isnt native, it wont be the biggest deal
Thank you for warning me, but I am very strong in my views and I will be sharing them regardless of what people may think. I am a strong feminist, but to me feminism is equality and male victims of DV being ignored and not taken seriously is not equality. Abuse is abuse, it is inexcusable from both males and females.
Interesting! My uncle has the same condition.
Currently, I'm dealing with a different heart issue and no one seems to be listening because I'm an otherwise healthy 24 year old. Any advice on getting someone to believe that you feel like you're doing to die on regular basis?
Did you do your amazing Burt Reynolds impression before SNL? Also do you have any stories from celebrity jeopardy that we might not know about?
Do you think you'll get married and settled down sometime?
thank you! do you have in mind if you are going to learn blender, maya or any other similar tool? you can get autodesk programs for free once you start attending college.
I'm from Nanbe (currently in Atlanta) and I'm wondering about your views on the decolonization policies that some pueblos are undertaking- e.g. Changing the Spanish names back to original Tewa (Tiwa/Towa), not saying "pueblo Indian" but rather Tewa, etc. What do you think?
I'm a bit confused on the "share your story" tab. Should we write out our story in the comment area, or just explain why we want to share our story? Thanks! I love seeing things like this.
Don't give up! In my experience the ones who don't listen are generally the ones who do not know enough about the health issue. I went to doctors in Texas, Florida and Virginia before being properly diagnosed in Massachusetts.
I did do Burt Reynolds and that's why I created celebrity Jeopardy so I could do my Burt Reynolds. No one ever mentioned that I played Burt Reynolds as a 35 year old.
EVERY TIME I GO OUT WITH A HUMAN THEY’RE ALL
HEY TAKE OFF YOUR TRENCH COAT
WOW IT SEEMS LIKE YOU HAVE SOME SORT OF HORRIBLE SECRET
SO I FEEL LIKE I JUST NEED TO FOCUS ON ME RIGHT NOW
If I learn a 3D modelling program, it's probably going to be Blender due to the fact it's open source and I've had a little practice with it. I can't do much, but I know vaguely what the UI looks like^^
My best friend is from Nambe! Do you know the Kaskallas? I love the fact that we went from San Juan Pueblo to Ohkay Owingeh really was a big deal for us because I felt we were now makjing progress and embracing a new era of native american greatness/pride
Sorry, still getting the hang of things with the website so thanks for the feedback. I’ll make it clearer for people on the site. You can write your story straight away if you like but I know there’s a lot of people that aren’t confident with writing so even just drop a message saying “hi, I have something I’d like to share” and I can email back and help you put it together and discuss things. Whatever you prefer!
Norm, I love your book and loved the audiobook version the most. Is there any chance of the TV or movie adaptation happening?
Also, how's a fella go about getting you to sign his copy of your book at one of your shows?
(please come back to Jersey or Philly soon)
What is the best way to eat a freshly killed cotton tail rabbit?
Why did you choose godot instead of unreal or other physics engines? What language did you use?
Always good except when she is getting into trouble. I am happy to give her your love.
Yes, a movie adaptation is worked on as we speak. You could send the book to Mark Gurvitz at Brillstein Grey and I'll sign it for you.
I RECENTLY CAME INTO OWNERSHIP OF A SLOW COOKER AND FRANKLY I HATE IT AND I DO NOT KNOW WHY I AM SURPRISED BECAUSE ALL THE STUFF I DO NOT LIKE ABOUT IT IS RIGHT THERE IN THE NAME. A FRESHLY KILLED RABBIT SHOULD BE EATEN FRESH, JUST DIVE RIGHT IN. IF YOU WERE NOT SUPPOSED TO EAT RAW MEAT IT WOULD MAKE YOU SICK OR SOMETHING
OH IT MAKES THEM SICK? LIKE INCREDIBLY?
OKAY I’M GOING TO TAKE ANOTHER RUN AT THAT ONE
HEY PAL, I JUST GOT A SLOW COOKER AND I LOVE IT!
I tried Unreal and Unity, but Unreal confused me and Unity was a bit buggy and difficult to use on Linux. Godot was super intuitive and worked perfectly and fluidly, so I just stuck with that one. Good thing, too, because I also tried Game Maker, LWJGL, PyGame, Pyglet, C++ and OpenGL and Batch Script when I was super young.
That's amazing! It's always so refreshing to hear about all of the different things we're able to train dogs for. Truly humanity's best friend.
When you first got Adele, what were some of your biggest struggles? Did it take you some time to bond? Was public access a breeze for you personally or did you encounter "Papers please" situations?
Norm, I love you. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
How long did it take you to reach the level of coding that was needed to create this? How long did finding all the bugs take? (my java code for courses still has infinite bugs and I can’t imagine ever posting to steam so props for putting yourself out there :) )
Edit: wow my set of upvotes >100 thanks for all the advice on using an engine - i might look into it once I reach the end of the job search - glad you’re doing so much with your life already at 17 - it really is much harder to learn something well that you’re passionate about once you’re trying to accumulate job worthy skills so congrats on being ahead
Do you tend to avoid any vices that have typically hurt native americans like alcohol? Also did your diet growing up include a lot of traditional pueblo dishes and do you continue to make them for yourself?
Writing is a great way to express inner emotions. I had trouble reading this though -- was there a formatting issue?
Adele and I took a few months to bond and about a year to learn each others language. I have only ever had issues with access when it come to taxi's. I have learned to get the number of the taxi and the company before approaching.
I've been programming since I was like 8 years old so the programming side of things just came from a lot of experience. I have spent the last two years or so getting really into game development so that's when I've really been concentrating on improving my skills- it's slow, but I think it's paid off.
Haha, I'd recommend using a full-on engine rather than just Java and whatever framework(LWJGL, etc) if you're trying to make a game as an indie. There's really no shame in it- it saves a lot of time and pain that could be spent on the higher-level elements of your game. Performance isn't really that relevant unless you're doing something really unconventional that other engines just don't facilitate properly, but concepts like that are few and far between.
As for finding all the bugs...
I just pushed an update to fix like 3 of them after getting a few messages about them.>.> It's the price to pay for no real QA testing, I suppose.
Alcohol is still prominent in the community, and I would like to be able to help my community find other outlets that are positive instead of drinking and gambling. I find it kinda sad that on my reservation, the casino and the liquor store are practically right next to eachother, and are open all week,, whereas the recreational centers never have a set time that they're open. And yes my grandmother made traditional dishes while I was growing up and she still does to this day. My favorite dish is Red Chile stew (potaoes and meat with red chile) and posole mixed together! it's so good!!!
Yes there was, didn’t realise the paragraphs didn’t work. Better now?
Thanks. I didn't see your episode but you were probably wise not to take the money. Those guys are all experienced and probably rake people over the coals on deal terms. Mark Cuban probably has a better lawyer than the entrepreneurs in there running a fledging business on a shoestring budget.
With all of the speculation about drug abuse, how bad did it actually get? What were your drugs of choice?
Do you still use any drugs? Drink?
I agree with this. If you want to make a game, use an engine. The only reason you should make your own engine is if your game is really simple, or you just want to learn how to make an engine. Most engines let you supplement the engine with your own binary code, so even if you need something really unconventional, you can usually add it to the engine.
I’m Laguna Pueblo and whenever I get homesick I make red chile stew! Made it last week, lol. My husband loves it when I’m homesick because I finally cook.
Why does your site have so many ads? Hosting a wp site doesn't cost a fortune...
Yes, I consumed and imbibed in drugs in my life. Never as bad as people said. Its not really a thing in my life right now. Im an adult.
I like to drink.
THIS IS AN INCREDIBLE QUESTIONS BECAUSE ON ONE HAND BELLY RUBS ARE MORE SATISFYING OVERALL BUT THEY LEAVE YOU INCREDIBLY VULNERABLE TO ATTACK SO I WOULD HAVE TO SAY HEAD SCRATCHES BECAUSE YOU GET ALL THE SATISFACTION WITH NONE OF THE STRESS
Agreed! The Godot Engine allows for C++ modules to be added at compilation, which is what I had to do in order to integrate the Steam API.
Godot 3.0 has this thing called GDNative which allows for C++ module integration without having to re-compile the engine which I am looking forward to a lot, considering Godot uses MinGW conventions and Steam uses MSVC- not exactly the nicest thing to compile on a MinGW compiler which throws a tantrum at the sight of certain MSVC types.
I have family in Laguna as well! what are your favorite dishes?
Like I’ve said, I’m clueless about with all this stuff. I’ve picked a theme and I write the posts and that’s about it! I’ve only been doing it for a month :)
Such happy doggos!
When did you know that Adele was the dog for you? Do you have to try different dogs, or do you just get paired with one that knows how to sense your condition?
What is the most profound piece of life advice has a random stranger ever given you?
I don't know too much about Godot, but my cousin is making a game with it, and he told me about the new features in 3.0, it seems pretty exciting.
He also uses Godot at work at Google to make basic UIs, because it's easier than making it in python
Just to lighten the mood (but in no way undermine and disrespect the trauma you suffered) do you like fish and chips?
Canine Partners For Life matched us as a team and they did a wonderful job.
A person once said to me that the homeless never get touched and that without human touch, the mind veers toward madness. So the homeless people I approach, I always give my money to, whatever it is I have, and I always hug them or touch them.
WHAT MAKES A GOOD BOY? IS A GOOD BOY BORN OR MADE? DO WE NOT ALL CONTAIN THE RAW MATERIALS NECESSARY TO BE A GOOD BOY OR, GOD FORBID, A DIRTY DOG? IS THERE NOT A DARK PORTION WITHIN ALL OUR HEARTS?
ANYWAY I AM, I BELIEVE IT IS ME WHO IS THE GOOD BOY
Oh wow, that's super cool, though I suppose it makes sense. I think one of Godot's greatest strengths is its ability for rapid prototyping, so I suppose that's a pretty smart use-case for it.
Not fluently, but I will get there, I have a great support system that has been helping me out an I will learn it, just need some time.
I LOVE FISH AND CHIPS. With chippy sauce. mmmm.
at what point in your life/career did you realize you were not everyday person level funny, but comedian level funny?
Do you want a treat / ball?
What do you like most about the workflow of the Godot engine and what do you hate most about it?
Are you into Native literature? If so who are your favorite? I a huge fan of Leslie Marmon Silko, Sherman Alexei, and Louise Erdrich.
Reporting this stuff to the police doesn't really help unless kids are involved. What can we do when kids aren't involved? As far as the law is concerned consenting adults and all that jazz.
He is the silent but strong type
I thought I was comedian level funny during my first year of comedy. Five years I realized I wasn't actually that level of funny. But five years after that I realized I was comedian level funny. So 10 years into my standup.
I WILL NOT BE DISTRACTED BY THE PRESENCE OF SOME SORT OF BALL AND I WILL ABSOLUTELY NEVER CHASE AFTER IT BECAUSE SOMETIMES THE BALL HAS ACTUALLY NOT BEEN THROWN AND FRANKLY THAT VIOLATION OF TRUST IS WHAT PROVES THAT THE HEART OF MAN IS CORRUPT AND DISGUSTING
SOME BACON WOULD BE NICE THOUGH YES I WILL ACCEPT THAT
I really like how prominent and easy-to-use the Node system is. I know that other engines have similar hierarchy things, but in Godot it feels really integral to the engine. Everything is based on Nodes and it gives everything a really nice, modular feel.
The worst is probably the audio system. I know that it's entirely different and a lot nicer in Godot 3.0 now, but as of 2.1.4 it crashes constantly and it's really awkward to use.
Like I've said previously, it totally depends on the country you are in what resources are available. Russia is very backwards when it comes to this stuff and it is extremely different to get help. Whereas there are a large number of charities that operate in the UK and USA to offer support for DV.
Should schools stop teaching "Little Red Ridinghood" and other lit that teaches children to hate people who have more than two legs? Hate literature in schools is a very big problem in our area.
Congratulations. I wish you much success. Which Linux distro is your favorite? Thanks.
I've listened to Alexie read his own writing, and he vocalizes the "excited" response (ie "oh, wow!") tone EXACTLY as I remember it in Espanola, and San Juan... now Ohkay Owingah... as a kid.
You are a Cata... we're cousins. I don't recognize your picture, but I think it's awesome you're doing an AMA.
My mom and brother will be going down to the pueblo for the dances later this month. I've heard the pueblo has some pretty cool things going on recently. Are you a part of any of it (beyond the traditional)?
You start with a Mexican guy and you pay him a $1.35.
I THINK ITS PRETTY MESSED UP TO BE SUSPICIOUS OF A GRANDMA JUST BECAUSE SHE HAS HUGE AWESOME TEETH SO YEAH LETS GET THAT BOOK OFF THE SHELVES
Thank you!! :) I've been happy with Debian for the past several years. It's super solid, easily editable and has a huge community. I've tried Mint which is also solid and Ubuntu which I always run into driver errors on. I once tried Arch. That's really all I'll say about it. I like large packages of compatible software that some would consider "bloat".
What was your favorite memory playing WoW?
Did you ever carry around a tape recorder to take your 'notes to self' in real life?
Why are you yelling?
How did you start programming at 8 years old? Were you nudged in that direction by a friend or family member?
What do you like the most about being a Native American and what do you like least about being a Native American?
When I was maxed out I could run Scarlet Monastery in two pulls
Yes I do. I'm constantly talking to my phone. Whenever an idea occurs. Sometimes I don't say enough. I'll dictate "large coffee cup" and have no idea of what I thought was funny about that subject.
My dad was super into computers and helped get me into computer games from a very young age, so I was always fascinated by all sorts of computer games. I tried several times to create (massively over-ambitious) text adventures in Windows Batch script from YouTube tutorials which I could literally just copy out exactly and just change the flavour text.
From there, I learned maybe one or two commands in ActionScript which basically just made buttons work. I didn't really understand how to do anything else, I understood key-frames and the basics of how sprites worked, but yeah- that's how I made and uploaded the award-winning "Catch-A-Button" to Kongregate.
I've always loved being native american, but when I moved out of state for the first time I truly fell in love with my culture because I then got to see how blessed I am to be apart of the indigenous community. I guess I finally got to see how unique it was and the pride I have will never go away.
What I hate is that people will ask the dumbest and most thoughtless questions, like when I'm at work serving tables I always get a guest or two that ask me if I did a rain dance or they ask me if they can be apart of the Pueblo's dances because they just recently found out they are like 1/16th Native American etc.
YES! I love Nirvana.
Norm, have you ever listened to your farts, I mean really listened to them, to see if you can hear words within them that could serve as a warning of something horrific to come?
Why are your favorite techniques of dealing with the totally normal stresses of being a typical human man in a not at all confusing modern world?
...because they just recently found out they are like 1/16th Native American
There's a reason why the Generokee tribe is the fastest growing Native American tribe in all of North America.
GREAT QUESTION PAL BECAUSE BEING ALIVE IS INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL
I TEND TO GET MY PEACE OF MIND THROUGH SWEET SWEET EXERCISE BECAUSE IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT CAN YOU EVEN REMEMBER THE LAST TIME YOU RAN AS FAST AS YOU POSSIBLY COULD? I CAN. IT WAS NOT THIS MORNING IN PURSUIT OF PREY, I JUST ABSOLUTELY LOVE TO HIT THE TRACK AT MY LOCAL COLLEGE CAMPUS
ALSO I HAVE BEEN PLAYING A TON OF STARDEW VALLEY LATELY THAT GAME IS INCREDIBLY CALMING
Will you get rich from this?
Honestly I have no idea where to put my expectations. My first instinct is to assume my game will do terribly, but the median number of sales in a game's first month on Steam is ~100 so I'm thinking that maybe I'll make my Steam Direct fee back which would be nice.
What's your next project?
I'm not entirely sure. Maybe something to do with whales. Or mushrooms. Maybe both? Probably just one. I expect that it'll be quite different from Mass O' Kyzt, though!
Generokee haha. Thats the best thing I have heard in awhile
Do you have more fun performing stand-up or hosting your talk show?
Maybe an RTS with three factions consisting of the whales, Japanese whalers, and Sea Shepard.
Yes; thats what we record the podcast on every week
I have more fun hosting my talk show because I've already perfected standup.
AS FAR AS HOUSEPETS GO THEY ARE SMALL AND NOT AT ALL DESCENDED FROM MIGHTY FOREST CREATURES AND THEY SHOULD PROBABLY STAY INSIDE BECAUSE HONESTLY THEY HAVE A VERY SNACK LIKE VIBE ABOUT THEM
OBVIOUSLY I DONT THINK THAT
IF I WANT A SNACK I DO SOMETHING LOW IN CALORIES LIKE PIRATES BOOTY
BECAUSE A HUGE PART OF BEING HUMAN IS BEING ABLE TO EAT LIKE 60 OF SOMETHING AND NOT FEEL BAD
ANYWAY I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED TO MY NEIGHBORS CAT IT WAS PROBABLY SOME SORT OF INCREDIBLE BIRDS FAULT
What is the most important thing in your life currently?
Will there be a Dirty Work 2?
Put a narwhal in there.
A game can't live without a narwhal.
How much emphasis is put on becoming financially successful?
to destroy my enemies, seen them driven before me and to hear the lamentations of their women
There are people who want to make it but I've yet to make up my mind.
ITS ALL ABOUT WHAT MOOD YOURE IN
A DRUNK GRILLED CHEESE IS BASICALLY A SEXUAL EXPERIENCE
A GOOD STEAK SANDWICH WILL MAKE YOU SO FULL YOU GET TIRED AND THAT RULES
BUT REMEMBER THAT TECHNICALLY ANYTHING BETWEEN BREAD IS A SANDWICH SO GRAB SOME BREAD AND GET CREATIVE
What is the best and worst part of doing stand up comedy?
What's your favourite item of clothing to wear on a night out?
You have to pay a fee to publish on steam? I figured they just took a percentage of sales.
Where do you stand on the ‘Washington Redskins’ debate? Do you find it offensive and a slur? Have you or anyone you know been called this term in a derogatory way? Thanks for your insight.
The best part is standing on the stage with your comedy being able to turn a passive audience into an unruly mob. The worst part of standup comedy is the insane pressure on the spine and lower back from standing up for so many hundreds of hours.
GOD THERE ARE SO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM, I AM CONSTANTLY USING THE MONEY I EARN AT MY CORPORATE JOB TO BUY CLOTHES TO WEAR IN MY FREE TIME. RECENTLY I BOUGHT A SWEATER AND THE OTHER DAY I BOUGHT A VEST BUT IF YOU SEE ME OUT ON A FRIDAY NIGHT I WILL LIKELY BE WEARING SOMETHING THAT RESEMBLES A SUIT I RETRIEVED OFF A DEAD MAN AT THE BEACH AND I WILL ALSO PROBABLY BE PRETTY SURPRISED TO SEE YOU BECAUSE USUALLY AT NIGHT I KIND OF HAVE THE ELEMENT OF SURPRISE
They do both. You have to pay a $100/£70 fee per title to put your game on Steam, and then they take some percentage of sales on top of that. At this point, they can afford to since they're the biggest digital games retailer in the world! ^^
I don't find it offensive. It's funny me and my buddy were talking the other day how white liberals are generally the only people offended by it. Me personally, I think that there are bigger things to worry about in the native american community instead of an NFL or MLB teams mascot. I'd like to see alcoholism go away and many other things prioritized first before any if that other stuff
Do you have a favorite story of messing with a talk show host?
What's the hardest part about being a wol perfectly normal human?
Haha I love this answer to what your next project will be
You're not the only one. I've seen many Native people in New Mexico who aren't offended at all and think the fight is ridiculous.
Personally, as a Laguna/Isleta woman, I do think it's time for the racist mascots to go. They're dated and it's crazy that they've lasted this long.
When I was younger I used to get "The Little Prince" in the mail all the time.
When I was in my teens, fans sent me Catcher in the Rye.
In my 20s, It was Alan Moores Watchmen.
Now its just letters from Prison
I've never messed with a talk show host. I'm just trying to make my segment as spontaneous and interesting as I saw talk show guests be when I was a boy.
LISTEN BASICALLY THE WHOLE HUMAN EXPERIENCE IS SUPER DIFFICULT AND THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I DONT UNDERSTAND BUT I THINK THE HARDEST PART IS PRETENDING THAT I “GET” TWIN PEAKS I AM SO SORRY I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND MAYBE THERE IS SOMETHING I AM MISSING HERE PLEASE JUST DO NOT HURT ME I HAVE COME SO FAR
Again I respect your opinion, everyone is certainly entitled to their own, but growing up that's all people have asked me is if i feel offended about Tribal Mascots when there are huger issues that need to be confronted
Could you have played Wallace in Scott Pilgrim vs the world better than Kieran?
Where do you get your ideas from?
I bought the game. Will play it tomorrow. Any tips?
Thanks for the 15% discount by the way!
Is there one specific part of your culture you wish more people knew about ?
Absolutely not. He totally killed it
Ideas exist outside of man. And drift into one's consciousness if one allows it. None of these ideas are mine, I only take them from the ether and put them back out in a more solid form.
IN SUBURBAN CHICAGO THERE IS A MALL
IN THAT MALL IS AN ABANDONED SAM GOODY
BUT BEFORE IT WAS A SAM GOODY IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL FOREST WHERE ONE COULD LEARN NOT JUST THE CONCEPT OF RIGHT AND WRONG BUT APPRECIATION FOR NATURE AND THE BALANCE IT PROVIDES
BUT OBVIOUSLY I NEVER WENT THERE, I JUST USED TO HANG OUT AT THAT SAM GOODY A LOT, BUMMED IT WENT OUT OF BUSINESS
Woo, thank you!! :) Biggest tip would probably be to upgrade toughness last>.> things get very hard very fast when the Kyztlings take a lot of hits to kill.
There's a lot of things I wish people knew about, I can't think of one specifically but there's a reason why I am a film major, I want to be able to show the world what goes on in our daily lives and how we operate on a daily basis. A lot of people think that Pueblo ppl live in Tipi's, etc but that couldnt be further from the truth
Its amazing how you are so composed and focused on your work for your age. I was so busy trying to get rid of my virginity at that age. Ugh.
Anyway now that i have a kid of my own, how would a completely clueless adult like me introduce a kid to the world of computers and coding that could lead his appreciation in considering this field as work? Just thinking ahead. He is only in preschool actually.
I dont have a biggest regret but most of my regrets involve women
In this day of political correctness, I suppose I should say nine grain.
But I won't. It's white bread.
AS A TEEN I OFTEN SPENT MY TIME LISTENING TO CONTEMPORARY MUSICS AND YELLING AT ONE OR BOTH OF MY PARENTS. I WOULD ALSO OFTEN THINK ABOUT HOW WOLVES DONT REALLY HAVE THE CONCEPT OF TEEN YEARS AND HOW ONE DAY THEY ARE BORN BLIND AND THEN THE NEXT THEY ARE EXPECTED TO JUST KILL STUFF AND BATHE IN BLOOD AND ALWAYS WORSHIP THE HUNT AND MAYBE SOME OF US WANTED TO LISTEN TO THE MOUNTAIN GOATS TOO BUT WE NEVER GOT THAT CHANCE BECAUSE WE LIVED IN THE GODDAMN WOODS AND HAD TO INSTEAD MURDER ACTUAL GOATS NEAR AN ACTUAL MOUNTAIN
Thank you! :)
Hmm, I'd suggest to get him into the practice of thinking programmatically/logically first of all(though that's hard if he's in pre-school!) Alternatively, get him some computer games. I think that there's really no sure-fire way. I got into programming because every time I saw something cool, I just wanted to make that thing. I got a lot of games when I was a child and so I just kept trying to make different types of video games- little text adventures(which I never completed), etc.
I really don't have much experience with kids so I don't know if anything I said was helpful, but I hope you got something out of that!^^
What's your favorite Phil Hartman memory?
What engine/framework/language did you create the game in? Well the answer to that was in the title...
Did you make the art yourself? I enjoy coding small game projects now and then but always work with free placeholder assets, I don't feel like I could dedicate the time to also learning how to make art, as I have a lot of things going on and also value leisure activities outside of sitting behind a computer, and it doesn't really interest me that much either.
He returned to host the show when I was a cast member. And I did a character that pinched girls's asses, and said "YOU LOVE IT." And he's a great fan of it and thought it was going to be a huge character. And then it didn't get past dress rehearsal. And he said, "That's showbiz."
ABSOLUTELY, I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE MORE OF A CONDEMNATION OF BELFORTS DESPICABLE BEHAVIOR BUT THEN HE MAKES A CAMEO AT THE END AND YOURE ALL LIKE “WHAAAA DOES SCORSESE ACTUALLY LIKE THIS MONSTER?” AND IT KIND OF SOURED THE WHOLE THING FOR ME BUT MAN ISNT THAT JUST CLASSIC CAPITALISM
Yup! I made the art myself.
It's actually quite a funny story about how I came to make the graphics for this game. I made so many placeholder graphics for previous games that my skills just improved without really noticing. Art is a lot more analytical than you'd think- being able to make the shading consistent and correct is really like most of it. Apart from that, I'd recommend to just keep the sprites lo-res and relatively small so that the human mind fills in the details by itself^^
If you can't deal with art, get a 3rd party on to help you with the art. I've never done this before, so I can't give much advice on that!!
Posole for sure!
Would you rather travel back in time and meet your ancestors or forward and meet your descendants?
Do you still talk to Dennis Miller? I loved your appearances on his shows, and would love to see him appear on NML.
How do I convince people that white space is important in drawing attention?
What was the hardest obstacle you had to get through in this whole journey?
I noticed in another comment that you are film major (same here!):
Any Native American-centered films or directors you recommend? I'm admittedly quite ignorant on this subject.
Do you have a favorite director/film?
My ancestors are mostly Irish cops and fireman; I have a feeling theyd be pretty racist. So let's go forward; plus Im in the market for a hoverboard
Yes I love Dennis Miller. Dennis gave me my first job for which I will be forever indebted. He's been kind to me since and I would love to have him on the podcast.
USE A TON OF WHITE SPACE AND GET THEIR ATTENTION
What's your elevator pitch for the story of humanity?
What is some recommended reading you might have? Also where do you get your existentialist wolf-like philosophy from?
Coming from a 35 year old who started a web agency at 17 years old, which has evolved into a product company with 50 employees today: It's not always the case that you will find the best solution (or even idea) on the first day (or first hour). That's kind of like publishing a book at first draft.
When working on product ideas, it is very useful to build quick prototypes in the beginning, testing it on friends and improving the idea with a few iterations to set the features properly. Then start on the full implementation. By the way, even if you do what I just outlined, you will find golden nuggets along the way. It is impossible to cover all corners of a product when planning.
It's impressive that you've published a game on Steam at 17 - keep going, and remember to have fun with other parts of life while doing it!
Do older members of your community still hold grudges against whites for what they have done to Native Americans?
When I almost crashed my golfcart into his and he called me "Applehead"
Imagine a woman in a sports car, impossibly beautiful, speeding down a winding road and looking out her window at a man who is skiing down a mountaintop. And then the man comes to a stop, snow flies from his feet. The two lock eyes. And both know each will be the other's entire. And the car speeds off.
UNFORTUNATELY I FIND THAT BOOKS MAKE ME INCREDIBLY ANGRY FOR SOME REASON MAYBE ITS THE TINY WORDS OR THE PAGES IN CONSTANT NEED OF TURNING BUT EVERY TIME I GET CLOSE TO ONE OF THOSE LITTLE GUYS NEXT THING I KNOW ITS JUST ALL SHREDDED UP
AS FAR AS THE ORIGINS OF MY PERSONAL PHILOSOPHY I WOULD ATTRIBUTE MY OUTLOOK ON LIFE TO SUCH GREAT WORKS AS “SURVIVING THE WINTER” AND “LIVING WITHIN A CRUCIBLE OF LIFE AND DEATH ITSELF”
What will be your pseudonym for your novel?
What are your favorite hair care products? Any tips on applying them for the most stylish results?
Why should I play this?
That is to say, there are so many excellent indie games on steam, what do you think makes yours stand out, and what differentiates it from all the others.
What does your tribe do to hand down ancestral knowledge, spiritual beliefs, tribal history, etc? Can you share anything that might be meaningful to people?
Thanks for doing the AMA! I grew up in NM and miss the beautiful landscapes.
Yellow and Pink
haha you clearly don't understand the nature of pseudonyms but I will publicize the book under a thick disguise.
LISTEN SOME PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT MY HAIR IS MORE OF A SELF REGULATING COAT OF FUR THAT HELPS STABILIZE MY BODY TEMPERATURE BUT HONESTLY I LOVE USING IT FOR FASHION REASONS. JUST GET A HUMAN PALM FULL OF SOME SORT OF CREAM OR GOOP AND SMOOSH IT ALL AROUND AND EVENTUALLY BOOM YOU JUST SPENT 30 DOLLARS TO MAKE YOUR HEAD LOOK DIFFERENT AND WHATS MORE HUMAN THAN THAT
I'm not going to try to sell you this game as the best indie game because it's really not, but I think that mine stands mostly due to the interesting premise of upgrading your enemies and the (well, in my eyes) cute lil alien designs.
I'm really happy with how the combat feels. It's as tight as I want it to be, the game feels fast-paced enough to be exciting and there are enough extrinsic incentives(unlockables, achievements, etc) to keep the game interesting and satisfying to play.
I hope I helped you understand something about the game, at least!
Sadly I could get in trouble if I were to tell you that so I will have to decline. But I will let you know that everything is passed down verbally so you wont find any information youre looking for online or in any books
Hey, you were a massive part of my childhood!!
Could you say hello to my wife, Toni?
In the podcast Geoff Edgers said you take a pill for anxiety, but didn't state what causes your anxiety. Was it wrong for him to mention that?
How would you suggest catching some sheep? Asking for a friend.
What’s your favorite kind of cheese 🧀?
How do you feel about the usage of Indian vs Native vs Native American? Is there something else that's preferable?
And no. I cant.
Oh no. I suffered from panic attacks. Panic attacks as opposed to anxiety attacks are a feeling of impending doom. When one strikes you, you're paralyzed. One struck me directly before I had to do Weekend Update, and I understood I needed help. My doctor prescribed klonopin and advised me to take half a pill before any performance.
WELL AS MY MOTHER USED TO SAY
EACH AND EVERY DAY YOU MUST JUSTIFY YOUR EXISTENCE TO THE CRUEL AND UNYIELDING HAND OF NATURE
YOU CATCH MORE SHEEP WITH KINDNESS THAN WITH 300 PSI OF JAW STRENGTH
BE NICE TO SHEEP AND MAYBE THEY WILL HANG OUT WITH YOU OR WHATEVER
I prefer native american but sometimes people say it without realizing it, so I have no problem when it comes to that unless you say it in a derogatory way.
what is your all time favorite finishing move in wrestling ? <3
Hey Mr. Norm, this mystery has been keeping me up for years now...
What is your favorite cereal?
Hey man, just letting you know that you're off to a great start and you should keep going with your dreams.
Have there ever been any design issues or ideas that just didn't make the cut? Do you think you will implement anything new into the future?
What's something about your tribe you want people to know? I'm sorry if that came out offensive, I'm not sure how to articulate it any better, and I'm not really knowledgeable about native american culture. Also, I'm an Indian American. Does it bother you guys when you get called "indians"? Whenever I tell some people I'm indian, they ask me my tribe and then I need to explain I'm not the Indian they're thinking of
The small package
Count Chocula. The least-respected, least-feared of all vampires.
WILLIAM ‘REFRIGERATOR’ PERRY
Thank you!!! :)
Yeah, definitely. I wanted there to be multiple boss types, I wanted there to be a big final boss and a lot more unique upgrades which would be randomly offered to the player(choose between: enemies explode on death, vision reduced to a certain radius, your gun now overheats) but that really wasn't feasible for a single person to create. Because of that, I just had to cut it out and keep going.
I don't know how I'll treat the game in the future. Right now I'm still in the "cooling off" phase- I need a little bit of time to be able to take a step back and see how the game really is, rather than just seeing little sprites with bits of code attached running around the screen. I think that it's not unlikely I'll add a few more skins to the roster in the future, but I can't promise that.
One of the things I want people to know more about is the Pueblo revolt that was led by Popay (look him up) and the role Ohkay Owingeh has in history. we were the first capitol, and have had many prominent figures in our tribe that more people need to know more about!
Hey Mr Culkin,
Are there any movies you passed on, or didn't get the chance to make for what ever reason, that you wished you would have taken?
Did you enjoy making Stephen Merchant so uncomfortable?
Yea, as asked before...what is your Linux distro of choice?
How do you feel about a lot of facts of Native American history being taken out of/ changed in textbooks? Specifically Trail of Tears and changing the narrative to essentially say that Native Americans willfully gave up their land.
Thanks for doing the AMA!
I was sent the script to Rushmore; I was still retired then.
That's a perfect movie
I was told later that Stephen was uncomfortable but I didn't mean to. The conversation just flowed to British children's entertainers being largely pedophiles and I don't know why Stephen Merchant was tiptoeing around it.
IT IS BOOMING
I HAVE TONS OF HUMAN FRIENDS WITH WHOM I CONSUME ALCOHOLIC DRINKS AND BRUNCH MEALS AND SOMETIMES WE EVEN GET TOGETHER DURING THE WEEK TO COMPARE HOW TIRED WE ARE
That's one of the things/stories I would like to be told from our point of view. A lot of our history has been edited and changed because some people may have realized what was done to us was/is not acceptable. If there were more prominent natives then we could let this be known to plenty of people but right now we need help identifying certain leaders amongst our community that are willing to sacrifice their time and travel to spread the word of our history. I would like to be one of those leaders someday
How did you and Jim gaffigan get set up for working on his show?
Are you still playing poker? Any favorite games / locations?
What is the best method to teach yourself programing? I tried when I was a kid Game Maker and GBA rom hacking but I never wrapped my head around it.
How do you feel about efforts to preserve native languages? Do you think there's a point where it's not worth it to try?
I have a friend who owns a comedy club; he reached out. I didnt answer his email till the last minute. We did one episode; I suggested that I come back as a background character sometimes. We ran with it. It was a lot of fun
I play a high limit stud at Hollywood Park and in Vegas at the Aria.
OH HELL YEAH MAN. I LOVE BEING AN ALPHA MALE. IF YOU GO TO THE BAR, GUESS WHO IS THERE RUINING IT SURPRISE IT IS ME THE ALPHA MALE. I WILL ABSOLUTELY BE TALKING TOO LOUD. I WILL DEFINITELY WAG MY MONEY AT THE BARTENDER LIKE IT IS NOT JUST A FIVE DOLLAR BILL. AND YOU BET THAT I WILL BE STARTING A FIGHT OUTSIDE BECAUSE SOME GUY ACCIDENTALLY CAME WITHIN 10 FEET OF MY GIRLFRIEND. I AM TERRIBLE.
I think the best method is to:
Make sure that you are programming something you're interested in
Don't try to cram too much knowledge into your head at once. For instance, don't try to comprehend list comprehensions in Python if you've only just learned what a list even is.
Don't feel bad about stealing code from random StackOverflow posts. As long as you have a basic understanding of what it does, you're pretty much good to go. I mean, don't out-right plagiarize but algorithms are free.
I also tried Game Maker 1.something and it never really clicked with me. I tried to make a fan-game of a book by some friend who wrote short stories several years ago, but it never really went anywhere. I would recommend the Godot Engine, since it's got a built-in scripting language which is similar to Python. Python is a fairly simple language to learn and definitely one I'd start with if you don't know what you're doing.
Hope I helped!
EDIT: Regarding #2: I meant that you don't necessarily need to be able to recreate it on command, as long as you see it and understand that it does a thing even if you can concede that you'd never have thought of it on your own. It came off a bit wrong, as MajorMoustache pointed out below.
one of my main goals in life is to use my platform to preserve the languages of tewa and keres for the nearby pueblos. If i can do that it would be my greatest accomplishment.
It is incredibly important to preserve these languages, as most of our stories are passed down verbally and not written in books or posted online
What was your experience like working on The Pagemaster? Did you have any involvement with the animation, or did you film your scenes long before the drawing began?
Would you ever consider doing a sports show again? That show was awesome!
How much does being able to understand complex mathematics (algorithms, for example) factor into being a computer programmer and video game developer? Hope that's not a silly question!
Where in NM and when is this event held? Is it open to the general public? Or is it a private tribal event?
Animated takes years to make; I pretty much just showed up in the studio, talked alot; and a couple years later it was doneWhoopieGoldberg
I would consider commentating golf which I think I can do better than anyone except Jim Nantz
KEEP DOING YOUR THING
Not a silly question at all!
I think that you don't really need to understand much complex mathematics in order to program to a sufficient level. Things get a bit more complex in 3D (quaternions... yuck) but honestly as long as you've had enough practice thinking in a logical/programmatic way, you should be fine.
I think that some knowledge of vectors and matrices come in handy, things like dot products, cross products, and what it means to normalize a vector. Also, some physics helps if you're dealing with a physics engine, so differentiation, integration, getting comfy with parabolas all helps out a lot. I think you can get quite far without most of that, though.
It's in Ohkay Owingeh, NM on Feb 18th, you can stop by as it is open to the general public from 6 am- 4 pm
What is life's purpose?
Is it just me, or does much of human folly leave you howling in the darkness for some sort of sense, and maybe a nice steak?
CS graduate here, been in industry for quite a while now.
Much of what you learn in CS isn't directly applicable on a day to day basis for most graduates. (IE I'm not using the master method to solve recurrence relations day in / day out, etc...) In retrospect, getting the CS degree was still very important for several reasons:
- Many of the classes, including the gen eds are all about the long term effect of training your brain to think in a certain way. Much like professional athletes make decisions instantaneously without conscious thought - due to training, that is what college/ the CS program is doing to you. Training your brain to think certain ways. You will approach problems in a very methodical way, you will see solutions in some cases effortlessly. There will be things that come naturally to you, almost without effort, that non-CS people will struggle with. This is nearly invaluable.
- Related to the above, you will learn the theory behind how things work. You will lean how microprocessors work. You will learn how the stack / heap / registers / caches / ALUs work. You will learn some kind of assembly programming language which you will probably never use again. But it will instill deep understanding which in odd and unexpected ways give you insight into problems and how to solve them. People who never learned those fundamentals are not able to solve the problem, or it will take them orders of magnitude longer.
- For all the above reasons, CS has some serious respect in the industry. Not having a CS degree will be a serious handicap and close many doors to you. On average, you can also expect a substantial pay cut compared to people with one. In my area it ranges $10-20k / year. I hear complaints all of the time from people in industry who don't have their CS degree. There are always exceptions, but this is the average norm.
- Networking, getting to know your peers -> Can open tremendous opportunities for you down the road. CS is fucking hard. The hardest thing I've done in my life. After going through it, especially connecting with people from your alma mater, you have instant respect for one another. In that way, it's comparable to any other life experience where people went through a very difficult experience together and bonded because of that.
Well, it depends on your view I suppose but it's been my experience is that life's purpose is to suffer. To abide the inevitable pain and to bear it in a noble way.
THE KEY TO HUMAN FOLLY IS UNDERSTANDING THAT JUST BENEATH THE SURFACE OF YOUR SKIN LURKS A SKELETON THAT IS ABSOLUTELY STOKED ABOUT ONE DAY BEING FREE
IF YOU GO TO THE BANK GUESS WHAT THE SKELETON IS AT THE BANK TOO
IF YOU TAKE A BATH YOU ARE TAKING A BATH WITH YOUR ONLY ETERNAL FRIEND: YOUR BONES
ONCE YOU ACCEPT THE WHOLE SKELETON THING, GOING TO THE BANK AND STUFF IS HONESTLY A LOT MORE FUN, ENJOY THE SKIN WHILE ITS THERE
I'm not actually planning on going to university(the UK equivalent to college), since I don't think the monetary and time expenses of going to uni are going to out-weigh how much I can do by building my portfolio by actually working on games. It might not work, but I think it's worth trying. Worst case scenario, I can always go back to uni.. right?
Yeah, I currently take Computing as an A-level and it's really only tangentially related to anything that I could conceivably want to do in the future. A surprisingly small amount of it is actually programming and computer-related work- there's a lot of systems analysis and weird paperwork stuff that I don't like.
Thank you! :)
If you were offered a role in any comic book movie adaptation, what would you wanted it to be the most?
What are you wearing?
Sorry, I meant wat r u waring?
I'm wearing sweatpants, and a T-shirt with beef stew spilled all over it. I had some beef stew for breakfast.
SEE I DO NOT UNDERSTAND IT YOU GUYS
I SIGNED UP FOR TWITTER, CLASSIC HUMAN BEHAVIOR
I MADE MY DISPLAY NAME NOT A WOLF SO THAT PEOPLE WOULD KNOW THAT I AM NOT A WOLF
I MADE MY USERNAME SICKOFWOLVES SO PEOPLE KNOW WHATS UP
AND I CONSTANTLY TALK ABOUT HOW I DO NOT LIKE WOLVES
AND YET PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS LIKE HEY DUDE ARE YOU SOME SORT OF SECRET WOLF BECAUSE THERES LITERALLY A RAW CHICKEN HANGING OUT OF YOUR BACKPACK
THE ANSWER IS NO NEXT QUESTION PLEASE
I'm taking a break for a few months since I need to focus on schoolwork, but we'll see by the time my next project rolls around. :)
Who do you think does the best impression of you?
What is your opinion on the moon? Additionally what is your favourite style of ham - honey baked? Maple glazed? Trench coat shaped?
How many copies per day are you selling since release?
I don't like any impressions of me but since Jimmy Fallon is the best impersonator I've ever met, when he does it I must believe that that's what I sound like.
I WAS NOT TOO LONG AGO INFORMED THAT THE MOON IS NOT JUST A LIGHT SOURCE BUT IN FACT AN ENTIRE LOCATION AND HOLY HELL WAS THAT A GAME CHANGER BUT I DEFINITELY DID NOT THROW UP ON MY COUCH ABOUT IT SO PLEASE STOP INSINUATING THAT I DID
AS FOR HAM, I AM NOT SURE THERE IS A WRONG WAY TO DO IT PAL. RAW, BLOODY, STILL ACTUALLY JUST A PIG, ACTIVELY RUNNING AWAY FROM ME, FROM THE FLOOR OF THE BUS, WHATEVER STYLE ITS IN, I WILL ABSOLUTELY EAT IT
I can't tell you that, Steam might get annoyed at me. :)
Any chance you would collaborate with Redlettermedia again?
Hey norm. Big fan. Do you have any plans to do the Joe Rogan podcast? I would love to see you on.
If you were a wolf, what's the first thing that you would do?
What's you're best piece of advice relating to game-dev and/or programming techniques?
I havent been asked but Im a big fan of what they do
I will do that.
As for gamedev in general, probably "fail fast". I know it's not strictly a game development saying, but I think when interpreted to mean that you need to prototype->evaluate as many times as possible in a project's life cycle it's super helpful. I went through like 4 different iterations of the main gameplay hook(upgrade your enemies) before settling on the current one, and if I didn't just bite the bullet and effectively delete tens of hours of work on the earlier iterations my game would have been a lot worse off for it.
Back in August you said you'd been invited to meet with the world's greatest novelist. My friend thinks that means Cormac McCarthy or Thomas Pynchon. Me, I go with Rosie O'Donnell. Can you tell us who you met, and if they enjoyed your book?
Are you always not a wolf, or only when there isn't a full moon?
May I ask how did you manage to have a 2D game require minimum of 2.4Ghz processor with recommended being 3.0Ghz? I hope you just didn't setup requirements correctly, because otherwise I can already tell that it was done in worst way possible as I don't see what would require so much power, from preview...
That's like what 3D games with tons of stuff in them require.
It was easy; I did it from my room over the phone.
I have no regrets
I'm not allowed to say. But it was one of the first two. And they invited me to discuss my book. Yes he liked it very much but had critical things to say that will help me out in future books. It was a very kind gesture.
AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER I HAVE BEEN A HUMAN MAN
STRESSING OUT ABOUT MY COWORKERS OPINIONS OF ME
BRINGING UP BREAKING BAD ON FIRST DATES
THE WHOLE DEAL
I'm going to be honest I just guessed based on 3 computers, two of which are pretty strong and the third is a laptop. I hope that nobody takes those too seriously^^
I always wanted to ask whats your favorite athlete?
Big fan, Norm! Aside from your own book, what are a few personal favorite books of yours that you recommend like-minded individuals read? I'm looking to have my perspectives SHIFTED.
Can third parties use data from Atlas Obscura? Not the actual articles, but say, if I wanted a list of all the places you guys deemed interesting and put it on the web so you can search for places of interest on a map. What kind of permission/license would we need?
Chris Jericho. Cause hes a boss
The two greatest living writers are Cormac McCarthy and Alice Munro, so I would suggest a collection of Alice Munro short stories and McCarthey's masterpiece "The Road." My personal favorites are "War and Peace" and "The Death of Ivan Ilych" both by Tolstoy.
I DO NOT WORK FOR ATLAS OBSCURA THIS AMA IS ACTUALLY BEING HOSTED IN EXCHANGE FOR ME NO LONGER HANGING OUT NEAR THEIR DUMPSTER EVEN THOUGH I KEEP TELLING THEM I JUST GO THERE TO SMOKE TONS OF CIGARETTES AND I AM NOT AT ALL TRYING TO SEE IF THEY GOT ANYTHING GOOD CATERED FOR LUNCH TODAY, SOMEONE WILL REACH OUT TO YOU SOON
On a scale of 1-10, how good a kisser is Har Mar Superstar?
Hi Norm Macdonald and Gene at The Washington Post. Norm, did anyone ever tell you that you look like you're related to Bruce Campbell? Gene, has anyone told Norm that he looks like he's related to Bruce Campbell?
I give him a 16 and three quarters
I presume one person has but none before this morning.
WHAT THE HELL I THOUGHT WE WERE SCREENING THESE
The greatest comedic novels (Don Quixote, Tristram Shandy, Pale Fire, Based on a True Story) all make heavy use of metafictional elements. I'm leaving out A Confederacy of Dunces because I hated that book. Anyway, were you consciously drawing upon that tradition in BoaTS? Or did the story you wanted to tell naturally take you in the direction of metafiction? I ask because you have claimed to hate meta.
Brontosaurus but we know thats not real anymore. Like pluto. Or math.
I love all those books. I do hate meta but I was forced into by the scriptures of convention. I was hired to write a memoir, but secretly wrote a novel so I had to use the techniques of meta to mask it. I did it so well the New York Times called it a nonfiction.
FOR REAL ARE WE NOT SCREENING THESE
I FEEL LIKE I GET THIS ONE A LOT DESPITE SPEAKING OFTEN AND AT LENGTH ABOUT MY DISLIKE FOR WOLVES
Snickers Snickers Snickers
also Snickers send me free Snickers
I will say about Bob Saget that he's so recognized it's amazing. And people come up to him and say "You're Bob Saget." And he says "thank you." I guess that's what fame is.
What are your thoughts about separating artists work from their behavior? Specifically in cases of comedians like Bill Cosby and Louis C.K.
I always listen to the Talking Heads but I've been listening to a lot of Beirut lately
I separate their work completely from their transgressions. Everything about their work is extraordinary. Everything about their transgressions is utterly ordinary.
Normy Normy Normy!
Any chance you'll invite Conan to your podcast.?
Your book is phenomenal, and loved the audio narration. Stay amazing sire.
Toe Jam and Earl; I play it on a daily basis
Meaty and delicious but not as good as Stew's moms.
Nothing against other ears, but Bunnys happen to be the best
Every time I see a photo of you, you look hungry and it kicks in my desire to feed people. You're not hungry are you?
No I have all the pizza a kid would ever want
Totally Rad. I loved the Royal Rumble this year. Big Nakamura fan.
What will it take to fully expose/overthrow the culture of exploitation in hollywood?
I always liked being a tank; something like a fighter
It's always Joe's Pizza (in NYC), and not to be all normal about it, but I do like a proper plain. That's how you can judge a place. I've been with lots of vegetarians so I can get with that, but I wouldnt kick a pepperoni and sausage out of bed.
Has Matt managed to get you to watch any One Piece or any other anime?
Not yet but on my list is One Punch Man, One Piece, FLCL, Cowboy Bebop- I have homework
Not anymore- Warcraft really took it out of me
Hey :) What is you favorite place in Europe? Greetings from north Germany :)
Hello, North Germany.
Centre Pompidou in Paris. I know their collection inside and out.
Do you ever think you’ll return to acting or the movie industry?
And how did you get into podcasting?
I do gigs here and there- its not a job. Its a hobby.
I just did Seth Green's directorial debut- "Changeland"- find it wherever Changelands are sold.
My buddy Matt Cohen hit me with a microphone and made me. Also I like the internet. And talking.
I ask myself in the mirror everyday
I love doing theater- its my favorite form, however Im not really perusing anything at the moment. Not looking for any gigs.
But yah. Sure. What ya got?
What do you like most about podcasting? Why do you think so many people choose to do it?
I like to talk at people and I like the sound of my own voice.
When I was a kid in New Hampshire (like 20 or so years ago) my friend was an extra in one of your movies. He said you ate lunch with him amd some others after an ice skating scene. I told him he was full of shit. Is there a chance he wasnt?
Sounds about right.
Was she cute?
The first time you heard of/saw the Culkin Christ, what was your reaction?
My first thought was "What took them so long?"
What two wrestlers, alive or dead, would you have play Harry and Marv so you can torture them in your funhouse maze twice?
Heath Slater and Mantaur